Hardon beach *** . In so many ways my sojourn to China has reflected a favorite picture of mine. (With apologies to Francis Ford Coppola), Shanghai, shit, I had been still only in Shanghai. he desires. I wanted a mission, and for my sins they gave me one. Once I was home after my first tour it was worse. After I was here, I needed to be there. When I was there, all I could think Around was getting back in the jungle. I'd scarcely said a word to my girlfriend once I said yes to breaking up. And therefore it is with Yang Yang. She calls me back like the jungle. Sell the house. Sell the vehicle. Sell the kids. I've gone native.